scepticism

the impossibility to believe

a loss of faith

temporary delusions

and away she goes....

to a new land

my partner in crime/many other global misfortunes

my little baby sister will be missed.

i bleed for love

unchangeable

even through time

yes, i do eat!

sadly

i gorge

insurmountable amounts

disgracefully

i see myself

as an epitome of obesity

personified abhorrence

so i say a 2 week fast

only then will i be beautiful to society

where people will love me

will you look at me now baby?

am i good enough for you?

so just let me be

the dreams of flying and to be skinny--

control

a word i detest

the stronger the hold

the harder i protest

let the truth be told

yet, it is the very word that i obsess

shaken

and i shatter into a wreckage no less

i am the controller, so please do not be mistaken

does she see me
as a mere trophy?
objectified
that i am
meaningless
justified?
truely not
sad realities

words
mere words
emotion-- the lack of

which whould you rather be?

take a walk with me

i will show you what it is to be free

some may call it crazy

but it is just a life filled with serenity.

my sinful prayers were answered

sweet temptation--sweet temptation

yet, it confuses...

thank you for the many many chocolates
a random act to make me happy
hah!
much appreciated p.B

perfection

normality

who are we to define it?

fragmented society

contradicting beliefs

an equation to confusion

observed beauty

reflection of monstrosity

web of doubts

entanglements of lies

love.lust.tragedy

it is just life as it was meant to be

they ask
'when was the last time you felt sincerely happy?'
mentally draining
time whizzing by
trying to rekindle that reminiscent moment
but
as painful as it was, i could not remember.

happiness
a joke
it is man's idea of deluding himself into believeing..
that life has yet to fail him

the truth--
bitterness drowns him
spiritual meaning is his imagination's cruel trick
anguish is all there is

i realised this as i sat alone these nights
i say again,
alone
always alone
for i am despised
with a blade in one hand
a cigarette in the other
the empty glass bottle by my feet
intoxicated
eyes swollen as the tears stream down my cheeks

staggering

looking into the sky
i just feel like releasing myself from everything
to bleed away
to fly away
but then i think

and today here i am writing this to you.