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Monday, September 29, 2008 [ 9:29 AM ]

migraine!
and they gave me pills for nausea, painkillers, muscle relaxants and SLEEPING PILLS! (dormicum?)
over medicated don't you think?
but, thanks to smallie my morning was bearable.
lifesaver.
with taxi rides and "TIP TOP" curry puffs (the BEST ever!)

and i wonder why my mom doesnt buy a mop?
clearly i would look like a maid, in my shorts and tees wiping the floor on all fours, no?
spring cleaning
apparently my mom believes that is the true spirit of hari raya
bullshit. warped.
its brainwashing to get my lazy ass to do the house chores
tendencies of OCD. 5h on a room? that's record breaking.

and naz.
the flags ARE red and orange
i checked it in the sunlight
pfft........
but i didn't count them though!

Monday, September 22, 2008 [ 12:26 PM ]

HELLO STINK PEOPLE!

cycling
sun. sweat. and NO incidents of falling! (my tendencies..)
4 crazy idiots in one office
with beer
resulting in numeous prank calls
impersonations that range from horny minahs to long-lost indian mothers

i like it alot!

Friday, September 19, 2008 [ 7:05 AM ]

it was only this afternoon
i thought to myself
perhaps i have healed
to expose my vulnerability to those that are willing

but SHIT came knocking on my door!

when i say over
i mean it
no rekindling
no reigniting
no reminiscing even
(pathetic rather, isn't it?)

that is why being "friends" again is hardly an option
so do not wonder why i never acknowledge the existence
it is not happening
and it will never happen

wake up your idea.

Monday, September 15, 2008 [ 10:07 AM ]

hollow
sonorous is the heart
reignite my soul
with a smile and caress
where i can wear my vulnerability like a cape
for you to shelter me against all pain
to rekindle my faith
to breathe belief

are you that person?
or a victim of your own delusions like all the others?
an imbecile who is merely in love with the thought of being in love.

answers.

Saturday, September 13, 2008 [ 9:44 PM ]

i was asked
"should you decide with logic or emotion?"
i would say, context

the heart
changeable as it is, may be the seat to stability for some
but its uncertainty breeds doubt
rationality is lost if the the heart overpowers the mind
the mind the mind.. is it our soul?
is not the soul the bloodlines of our hearts?
are they not parallel?
emotions cause murky visions
the waves of feeling hits us hard in its extremes
insanity

yet, logic
rigid cold common sense
restrictive
a strong basis, dependable
used with wisdom derives benefit.
but who defines benefit? would you not want happiness?
happiness lies in the heart? what is happiness?

CONFUSION

logic
a gift given which separates us from animals
but beastiality is it not innate? is it not the soul of some?

the simple answer "decide with both. for the heart and mind are connected through the soul. negelect one, and the biased outcome may be detrimental."

Monday, September 8, 2008 [ 11:23 PM ]

insecurities stems doubt

the poison which annhilates truth

will you forever assure me?

with words of purity

a radiating soul that would comfort me

where i could lay in your warmth to an eternal sleep

visions that surpass this horrid vessel of mine

encapsulated

only to appreciate the self-- the essence of humanity

are you that person?

compassionate enough to love a monster

let your scent linger

for that is the very least that i can taste the ethreality of heaven.

[ 9:17 PM ]

ARTICLE 2: Lighter

i'll flick you with my fingers, until you light up for me
baby are you burning up?
you die out when you're wet, baby?
i keep you burning with my hands!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008 [ 9:24 AM ]

struck by a caffeine chocolate chicken high(you guys know how that is!)
smallie discovered that i have a wonderful mind
officially i have a new talent
*ahem* SEXOLOGY 101
i am able to sexualise anything and everything

ARTICLE 1: Laptop

definition: LAP-TOP
on top of your lap. it sits. when turned on it gets warm!

don't shut down before i turn you on
let me push your buttons so i can hear you *toot*
i'll plug you in so i can use you
you electrify me when my fingers are wet

and there you have it, the first article of Sexology 101.

Monday, September 1, 2008 [ 9:48 AM ]

a celebration to remember forever....

19 19

the BESTEST after many many years

great food&company

i feel LOVED! and i love all of you too!!!

thank you for the surprise and for turning up.