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Friday, December 26, 2008 [ 11:48 PM ]

i am so drained

seriously in need of emotional support before i collapse and crack my head open on the sidewalks

slightly exaggerated maybe?

a job in a semi-bestial setting

where everyone loses their consciousness

women prancing about scantily clad and throwing themselves worthlessly at the male species

these supposed "Men" (eradicating the idea of gentlemanlinesss) have only a single thought in their minds

intoxicate these women and drive their hardened machines into the vacant holes that prop available at every headturn

the entire human population was like a mass orgy waiting to implode

not a pleasant sight at all.

sigh!

Friday, December 12, 2008 [ 7:29 AM ]

they sit and stare blankly into space

the void

in this metal tube which moves ever so quickly

parallel to development and societal efficiency

individual thoughts.. thoughts that are entirely conditioned (you are made to think the way they want you to)

contented

complacent

they revel in instant gratification

society?

what has this idea done to God's creation?

he who created us to be simple, innocent and compliant to his word

conformity has transformed

no longer to Him, the higher order, but to the gears of technology

naivety

imbecillity

ingenuity

all of which are pieces of a puzzle that create and segregate

black next to white

brown amongst the yellow

or a tainted being sitting in the solitary-- like me

have they ever wanted to breakfree from the monotony

rebel against the norm

wonder?

give them an identity.. I scream in my head

but who am i to judge

i myself am a part of this vicious cyclical order

a member of this so-called society

yet, these questions set me free.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008 [ 1:35 AM ]

she stares into your eyes and speaks nothing but lies

deceit

you never did realise

her facades are an endless pit

Monday, December 8, 2008 [ 10:31 PM ]

Like a flower

She blooms before me

The once enclosed beauty, now radiating endlessly

The world only wants to have her in their visionary

With arrogance shes sways in the wind with subtle trembles

Oh her soft petals!-- how alluring

Intoxicating scents she exudes

Entices all seats of human passion

The need for her, the want

Yet, quickly she withers

Within her first breath of life

Her beauty fades like the residing tides

That move to the beats of the lunar drums

No longer does she hypnotise the peripheral

Devalued

She sits lonely

Scattered below-- strewn all over

The wind now her enemy

Trampled upon

Only able to admire those that bloom after her-- that still remain above her in the realm of sweetness

She sheds tears

Her helpless state

But more painfully, the sadness from her knowledge that they too will later suffer a similar fate

The price of beauty never is a choice

Twisted

Monday, December 1, 2008 [ 9:13 PM ]

reflections

mutilations

fragmented

conflicting heart and mind

tears fall

unknown reasons

how do you know if you love someone when you have never loved before?

what separates love, lust and infatuation?

why do people throw these words around without a care of its value?

is anyone ever ready and strong enough to love?

what makes you love someone whole-heartedly and unconditionally?

can someone please answer my questions.

anyone out there who is reading this.

it would be a blessing.

[ 11:49 AM ]

today i realise there's more to life than just happiness
there is the necessities to survive
not a survival upon dependence
but a survival based on the self
a solitary strive to live

i sit here in a semi-drunken state
eyes barely opened
but a mind with clarity beyond any state of sobriety
i awoke when you spoke to me
enough is enough
i need to live life on my own

yet, i secretly wish for someone to just hold me with utmost sincerity
and tell me that everything will be okay (hallucinatory!)
most importantly
to love me unconditionally
but, it will always remain a dream
for it is sainthood

so i ask of nothing more than solitariness
for all others bring me anxiety
beyond my capacity
i am sorry
for being me
just walk away and leave me
save yourself from such a tragedy
i beg you to believe me
it is a warning for humanity