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Tuesday, May 6, 2008 [ 8:41 AM ]

they ask
'when was the last time you felt sincerely happy?'
mentally draining
time whizzing by
trying to rekindle that reminiscent moment
but
as painful as it was, i could not remember.

happiness
a joke
it is man's idea of deluding himself into believeing..
that life has yet to fail him

the truth--
bitterness drowns him
spiritual meaning is his imagination's cruel trick
anguish is all there is

i realised this as i sat alone these nights
i say again,
alone
always alone
for i am despised
with a blade in one hand
a cigarette in the other
the empty glass bottle by my feet
intoxicated
eyes swollen as the tears stream down my cheeks

staggering

looking into the sky
i just feel like releasing myself from everything
to bleed away
to fly away
but then i think

and today here i am writing this to you.

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